WHO SAID I DON'T???

Though I look so strong, inside & out,
if I want to cry, why is there a doubt?

I told you, I'll stand beside you, being your shade,
you know I'll be there, does that mean I don't need aid?

I have a heart too,
that weeps in a while,
my frustrations are congested,
stuffed in a pile.

I ran in search,
for your hand, your shoulder,
I screamed your name.
and my pain made it louder.
I saw you there, starring at me,
with an expression that said
"I have nothing to say"
I ran toward you,
and you vanished away
yet I waited for you,
all throughout the day.

I hoped you would come,
at least in disguise,
rescue to take me home
& I realized I want wise!

It ain't your fault, you never understood me,
I shall be blamed, for my conscience can't let it be.

I thought you would guess,
I wanted you so much, so bad,
and see my situation, that hindrances had had.

I couldn't hurt you, by saying that you hurt me.
I couldn't make you cry, by saying that you've made me cry.
even then, I cant hate you,
I don't know why, but I don't want to love you.
and now that is not a lie.

I want you to go away from me,
so that you can live yours and I can live my life,
for once I want to say it,
I don't want to be your wife.

I wanted to lay my head on your shoulder,
but failed to find it.
I wanted to pour my heart out to you,
but I couldn't see you.
I wanted you to be the reason for my smile,
and yet another time, I failed...just to smile.
I wanted our life to be an example to all
but there was no our, just you and me.
and ever since I stood up, you made sure that I fall!